Friday, March 11, 2005

hiaz i jus never seem to be "completely happy"...now when i hv such gd results which i might never achieve again in the next 2yrs...i stubbornly chose to be upset over sum silly things...problems...minor ones...which my mind transforms as major ones...ai...my mind smths corrupt de la...

Its cos deres smth special bout my mind lor...i can link info..i can predict pples thoughts...in a way im psychic...futhermore wad i dream comes through 50% of the time...egs Back in P6 i dreamt that the English test the nexy day would have something to do with Hamsters and it DID!!...really lor...oso last yr i dreamt that philip would get full marks for maths n he wld hv if not for ow yeong lor...n end of yr n dreamt that me n ariana wld be diff class...n we were...

ah...enough?...lol...nvm...i mus still try my best to act as a normal person la...stop trying to visualize too much although wad comes to my mind is usually reality..cos perhaps it ll make me depressed...n drains my energy...2dae so slpy lor...omg i SLEPT DURING SOCIAL STUDIES...god...n leroy was throwin pen cap at me n i was still aslp...is mdm neo too boring or is she too fat...LOL...anw dis term if not for languages i wld hv had a perfect term lor....eng chi B4...xiao man...den Amaths 74...n e rest of my exams all 80+ lor...hiaz hope nxt term can avoid my jinx....

lol silly yanchao...poor him...for being so brave,,,py would fall for him lor...in a chick flick...LOL...silly guy...bud i admire his bravery...not many pple wld jus openly say out hu dey like lor...not me...not me AT ALL!!...ai...cos i always fluctuate de...n smths i fall 4 gd looks oso bud will knock myself back after a few days de la...hmmm...honestly i really dunno wads my perfect gal siaz...nick always ask me dis...cos me got so high requirements...lol...hmmm...mus handle my mind which outbursts smths...mus handle my sarcasm n insults wadeva way u view dem...my bhb-ness..n e fact dat smths i get upset over small things...n perhaps sum1 hu noes how to slap me n make me laugh back...[means make it ticklish not painful]?...hahaha,,,ya sadly no1 is perfect la...so mus gv n take la...bud i ll only do dat when im despo la...LOl...ive still got a long life to go...

n it cld hv ended today...i dunno wads wrong lor...i crossing the road dat time RED LIGHT den sum crazy motorcyclist jus zipped past me i cld feel the friction n my heart was soaked lor....xiao...it was prob jus inches...man...lifes so precious..its only when u lose ur loved ones do u regret not saying how much u love them...bud den again if u be lyk yanchao nth will work out....man...

i wish i cld be lyk sum1 lyk arkar or flip hu can jus be lame lame n take life by e day being unserious...ok only arkar...n get to flirt wit pple all day...=p...n feel normal..never depressed...nvm...i still always tink im more fortunate to hv so many GOOD UNDERSTANDING friends la...

smths i really so feel being in between the devil and the deep blue sea...sighx...

[x] i'm open-minded
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